Everything Will Be O.k.

Happy 2014 everyone!

It's a bit weird to be back to this blogging thing after pretty much taking December off.

It wasn't intentional. I just apparently needed a break and a break is what I got.

I've been struggling a bit putting this first post of the new year together.

Do I look back at 2013? Do I talk about what I am looking forward to in the upcoming year? Do I proceed as if today is just a regular 'ole Wednesday? It's an odd day to try and jump back into the swing of things.

But then again, things have been kind of "odd" lately to begin with.

While in New York, I had this weird moment of feeling completely uncomfortable in my own skin. It happened while we were at the John Mayer concert in Brooklyn and I just couldn't get comfortable with myself. It's been this feeling of not knowing who I am any more. And that feeling has stuck with me since I've been back home.

I find myself second guessing decisions I've made, feelings I'm having and I hate it. Should I have taken on the "new" position at work? Am I making the right decision with school? Did I completely misinterpret what he said and ruin a friendship?

Everything has been this big jumbled mess in my head and it's been confusing and exhausting.

On the last day that I was in New York, my friend Vickie and I headed to the Christmas market in Bryant Park to do some last little bit of shopping before I headed home. At one of the booths, I came across a little sign that has become my motto for the new year. It was tucked amongst the larger handmade signs, almost hidden, but as soon as I saw it, I knew I needed it for my desk.

A reminder that no matter how complicated or overwhelming things seem, everything will be o.k. and things will work out the way they are supposed to work out. Even if it's not always how we originally wanted them to work out.